#ok im gonna go look through my camp stuff

[not-actually-human]

i cannot find my letter from my camp counselor im gonna fucking lose it

[amber-michaelson]

A Change Of Pace

Part 2

Part 1

Barbarian Katsuki Bakugo x Slave reader

Summary:

Read at own risk

Warning: pregnantion,

yn pov

its been a few months now since katsuki took me out of slavery and brought me here i’ve grown close with his friends kiri denki mina and sero they always kept me company when bakugous not around which is hardly ever he always wants me by his side for some reason and only allows me to take care of him which i don’t understand why “yes bakugo” i said walking into his tent “pack my stuff we’re going home” he muttered passing but paused “and its katsuki to you” he said before disappearing into the other part of the tent his was the biggest tent out of all of them and down the middle was a divider splitting the weaponized side from the bedroom and bath room “wheres home exactly” i called peering to him from around the corner “to the Bakugo kingdom dumbass” he yelled stuffing his stuff into a crate “oh” i whispered my voice wavering ‘alright’ i turned to the weapons wall where a few crates layed by i walked over and started putting the axes and swords in and didn’t take notice of the people standing behind me “boo” i screamed in shock dropping the sword i was carrying which cut my leg before hitting the ground “fuck” i cursed as blood started to seep out “yn what happened” katsuki yelled running out and fumed as he saw his friends “what the hell did you do” he muttered hitting the back of denki���s head

Katsuki pov

I was fuming "what the hell did you do" I yelled moving over to yn "I dropped your sword I'm sorry" she said through gritted teeth "i don't care about that fucking sword" I snapped picking her up and taking her to my bed "baku-" "just fucking leave you've done enough" I yelled at my friends as I layed yn on my bed "katsu-" "shut up yn I need to patch you up" I muttered grabbing different things that could help

Yn pov

I watched as he dumped alot of things onto the bed before settling infront of me "fuck it looks bad" he said grabbing a clothe as started to clean the cut before put ointments and bandaging it "there" he breathed out and looked up "now go wait on the horse" he said standing up "but you sai-" I cut her off "I said go wait by the horse I'll finish packing" he muttered pointing to the door I sighed in pain as I got up and limbed my way out "I'm so so sorry yn" denki cried coming to my side "it's fine denks I'm ok" I murmured stopping by my horse "are you leaving us yn" Mina yelled jumping beside me "we said we're sorry" kiri said giving me the puppy dog eyes "katsuki said we're leaving" I murmured looking confused why we are the only ones leaving "he said we'll be going back to the palace" I said looking between them "that's strange" ejiro said scratching the back of his head "hey shitty hair" they whipped around to face bakugo "I've packed up my stuff just make sure everything gets back" he muttered and pushed through them "come on pipesqueak" he said and helped me onto my horse "why are you leaving us bakubro" kiri whined making me giggle "because the old hag needs me now, now shut up" he yelled hopping onto his horse "here yn have my pouch of food" kiri smiled handing me a pouch "thanks kiri, see ya guys" I smiled and waved at them "come on" bakugo muttered and started walking out the camp with me following 'this is gonna be weird'

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I got all the stuff I needed to patch katsuki up as he groaned in pain as he sat on his bed "hurry up" he yelled as I scrambled to get the last of the stuff "im trying" I said laying all the stuff down "well that's not good enough" he snapped I rolled my eyes as I started to clean his wounds and cuts some making him flinch "some of these need stitches" I murmured glancing up at him but just got a growl in response "well hurry it up then” i quickly finished up bandaging and putting ointments on the others before moving onto the stitching “this might hurt” i mumbled as i did the first stitch causing him to growl and bite his lip “told you” i whispered earning a hard glare as i carried on “almost there” i said as i cut the thread to move onto the next one “your doing great bakugo” i murmured “katsuki” “what” i asked looking up at him “call me katsuki from now on” he muttered.

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we’ve been riding for a few hours now but mostly in silence “hows your leg doing” katsuki asked slowing down so he was beside me “fine i guess it doesn’t hurt as much” i said and it fell back into silence it was a nice silence "yn" he murmured "yea katsuki" I said looking at him "when we get there my mom might bother you" he murmured as he started to explain how his mom would bother me and pry

"Let's stop here for the night" he said jumping off his horse and helping me down "thanks" I said and took off kiri’s pouch fill of food and bottle of water "are you hungry" I asked taking a bite of a apple "no I'm fine I need to start a fire before the night comes" he said taking the horses and tired them up so the can graze and took of their saddles I looked around "what must I do" I asked "just try and not hurt yourself I can't fix you up out here" he said before disappearing into the bush "ok I'll try" I muttered it was a nice little clearing with a stream not so far away I wondered well limbed around trying to see if there's anything I could do but nothing I sighed and sat down by a tree waiting for bakugo to come back

Bakugo pov

I grumbled as I picked up some more fire wood "next time I cut off there heads" I muttered to myself they always scare her and she jumps so easily

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Yn was feeding me food as she sat in front of me and sero and denki jumped out behind her causing her to drop the plate of food on me which was boiling hot.

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I chuckled remembering how apologetic she was and how she was by my side 24/7 till I got better, yes I loved how she cared and nursed me back to health everytime I got back from a raiding I loved it but it takes a while from her to calm down after they scared her she flinches at everything, I made my way back as I thought of what I'll face when I get back to the kingdom, the reason I was sent out was not just to raid it, was to get a harem of concubines and wifes to give me sons for the future of our empire but I haven't found anyone other then yn who court my interest she was just beautiful and over the course of her time with me I've seen her at her highest and lowest and have grown close to her "I'm back" I said as I came back to the clearing she was sitting by a tree I kneeled down and started to build the fire, the sun was starting to set and a cold breeze was blowing through the trees I lite the fire before going to yn and taking off my cape covering her "what about you" she mumbled as she cuddled into the fur "I'll be fine pipesqueak" I smirked at how cute she is i sat close the fire till it was night and went to lay down by yn who moved a bit closer to the fire “come here pipesqueak” i smiled and pulled her closer covering her and me with the cloak “katsu-” “tell anyone about this and ill murder you”i murmured laying my head in the crook of her neck 

yn pov

i was as red as a tomato as i felt his breathing on my neck causing goosebumps to appear "night pipesqueak" he murmured sleepily "goodnight katsu" I whispered and started to dose off myself

The next morning

I woke up facing katsuki with his arms around me and one of my legs on his I was to scared to move because that could wake him up and he's not a morning person

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I placed katsuki's food next to his bed as he snored away "katsuki" I said and gave him a slight nudge but nothing "katsuki" I said louder but only got a 'fuck off' in response I got up onto his bed and jumped on him "katsuki bakugo get the fuck up" I yelled in his face but yelled and he flipped us over with him hovering over me glaring done at me "no" he muttered and dropped down on top of me "katsuki we have to get up" I laughed "5 more minutes".

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I stared at his face this is the most I've seen him calm and no scars or blood stains on his face he was honestly pretty handsome "I can feel you staring" I froze as he opened his eyes staring back into mine "sorry" I said but i still kept staring as he stared at me "we should get moving" I whispered "nah few more minutes" he said closing his eyes again "well at least let me get up" I muttered squeezing and squirming but he wouldn't budge "katsu" I whined "fine" he muttered and let go turning over and dosed off again I got up and stretched out my limbs before pouring water over the fire and saddling up the horses again and preparing some food for the road "ok no-" I turned to wake up katsuki but I ran into his chest "I'm up" he said tiredly and stretched out I turned away and hoped onto my horse fixing my legs bandages "come on we don't have all day" I said smiling as he got onto his horse and I passed him food before we started continuing our journey "so how is it at the castle" I sang I was starting to get excited for the arrival "it's like the camp except with my old hags annoying ass there" he chuckled.

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I marveled as he hopped our horses infront of the bakugo castle it was magnificent "katsuki my boy" a loud voice rang out and I immediately bowed as the queen came before us and the king beside her "and who is this" she murmured as I rose "this is yn she was a slave who now is accompaning me" he said "and she's the only on" she said surprised peering around us expecting a whole parade "yes she's the only one" he muttered his eyes twitching "well young lady I am expecting grand babies within the year" she sung before disappearing into the castle leaving me shocked "she doesn't mean that dear and welcome to the family" his dad smiled before going to find his wife I turned to katsuki who was blushing as bright as a rose "wha-what" I stuttered "don't listen to the hag" he murmured and took my hand pulling me into the castle and up the stairs "where are we going" I asked "to my room where nothing of these extras disturb me" he said and pulled me into a room and shut the door "wow" his room was huge with its own connecting bathroom and balcony his bed was in the middle "I can get used to this" I smiled and jumped onto his bed it was more comfortable then the one at the campsite "what are you doing" he said as he came and stood at the beds side "I like this bed you can get a new one" I laughed "no way" he chuckled and layed on top of me "why do you like this" I giggled "because it means you can't leave me" he murmured "katsuki what does your mom mean about grand children" I asked looking at through the corner of my eye "yn" he said as he sat up letting me turn to see him "I was sent out to look for wifes to bear my children" I was getting more confused at the moment "I choose you because you were the only one to interest me" he murmured and pulled me to him "katsu" I said "I know I should've told you but I didn’t want to screw this up" he whispered staring at me I didn't know what to do but just kiss him our lips just crashed together as he pushed me down onto the bed "I feel the same katsuki" I murmured against his lips as his hands started to wonder over my body pulling off all my clothes "fuck katsuki" I moaned as his lips traveled to my neck then down to my breast giving them a light bite before moving down to my pussy "katsuki" my hands went straight to his hair pushing him into me as I grinded into him he was working miracles of his tongue "fuck I'm gonna cum" I whined cumming into his mouth "wow you taste fucking delicious baby" he growled and he sat up and started to pull off his clothes and getting back on top of me "I only want you to carry my children" he said before kissing me again and pushed his cock into me and started to push in and out "fuck katsuki" I whined wrapping my arms around his neck and scratched as he hit that one spot "does that feel good baby" he smirked and started to hit that spot everytime "shit baby your clenching" he groaned as he started going harder and faster "fuck I want to see you swell with my seed" he growled into my ear causing me to shiver and shudder "fuck I'm gonna cum" I cried as I ran my nails down his back "me too" he groaned thrusting one final time before shooting his seed inside me, we layed down with him still inside me "I fucking love you" he panted and kissed me "and our little growing family" he smiled as we dosed off.

Thee End.

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[forgottenvalentina]

OOC | Vasilieva & Malconaire

ok friends so ive been thinking a bit abt valentina & macdara: the early years, and like...idr when i ~said that valentina's mama kicked the bucket, but if i said it was earlier than this im lowkey retconning it bc!! ok so valentina's mom was in fact ~worse than valentina, herself, and i feel like this comparison maybe made bran think, initially, that maybe valentina was a lil ~better than ~she actually is???? that she was just being pushed into things by the pernicious influence of her mother and that maybe he could even rescue her from that and help her be her best self???? i do think her mom died pr early on in the marriage, and for a couple years after that, bran probs tried to give her the ~grief benefit of the doubt, perhaps??? but he was an idealist, i feel like, and valentina is ultimately a pessimist and yeahhh

to a degree, i think he was right, tho. i mean, i do think valentina always ~was worse than bran maybe initially imagined, and i do think she was always ~going to be, but i do think that his influence over time might have helped her tamp down on that a bit, helped show her a better way, etc, after her mom died?? if roderick and the riverbend had all happened later in time and hadn't just overpowered her w her past trauma rising up to meet her and bringing out the worst in her re: her survival instincts, bc i do think she's...

well, her family crest is the serpent, right? and i do think she's a bit of a viper, yknow, she strikes when she feels backed into a corner, like...that's the bit w bran's will, too, in a way. first she clams up, can't breathe, can't move, then she does the conniving to get out of it and, like, interestingly i think in the [ comment w sebastian ] we're getting to see that a bit. she's cowered, now she's feeling panicky but safe-ish again, but like she has to act in order to maintain that safety, and so she lies in wait, looks for weaknesses she can pounce upon, but yeah this time obv on a much smaller scale but she'll never make the mistake of trusting/underestimating sebastian again and, where she's been team arthur this whole time, this might just push her into @forgottenedmund 's camp (i know!!!! the ally he's been wanting this whole time more than anything!!! lkasjdflkjsdf) esp w the guin thing falling through and arthur going rogue and no longer appearing for some reason???????

anyway!!!!!!!! got distracted there for a hot minute but yeah!! i do think there was a future in which maybe there could've been a better valentina??? not much better and ultimately i think post!bra's death she was always gonna more or less revert tho def w more hand-wringing/more slowly over time etc due to the trauma steam rolling her again but yeah!! basically i do think bran probs initially believed he was leaving his girls in better hands, if smth ever happened to him, than he actually was!

also some bran/valentina wedding details i dreamed up, bc i feel like they sort of ~mingled the vasilieva/malconaire traditions a bit?

VASILIEVA STUFF

bran (the way i wrote that 'brain' at first alksjdflkjdsf) 100% had to pay her mom!!!!!!!! also the dower house got DECKED OUT i can tell you but that was separate from the bride ransom bc you think ~valentina is grasping?!?!!??!!! ;DDDD anyway she refused several times to get more and more for herself out of him before finally handing valentina over

both sets of kids were roped into the kidnapping thing

malconaire was feted all week a la vasilieva but unlike in vasilieva where its the couple being feted by the ppl it was bran like feting the ppl in thanskgiving for being welcoming to his new bride basically and valentina and her mom were like what??? is???? happening??????? anyway the grand feast was kicked off w the traditional astairan goose

the wedding gifts were exchanged between the couple

an axe was carried through the door to start the ceremony, but by valentina's mom instead of bran's (valentina: aww yes a fun symbol of my whole life so far)

in place of a shaman to predict the future, an astairan seer blessed the union

they were married in summer for good luck

the mourning songs were skipped bc this was valentina's second wedding and therefore the young girl in her had symbolically already died

there was no crowning bc i feel like bran probs considered it unseemly and above their station or whatever since they'd not been selected in the kingsmoot etc (the vasilievas like 'hold up...the whaT') and he was on the queen's regency council and given that it just seemed like he was making a statment(tm) he def didn't wanna make

there was a procession and bran cast coins and such all the way

they mingled the doll/figure thing of vasilieva w the guardian statue thing of astaira and did use the figure to catch well wishes/ward off weather and bad omens etc, but instead of keeping it a la vasilieva presented it to the guardians a la astaira

valentina did wear red but instead of the traditional sarafan of vasilieva, she wore an astairan gown; she ~did wear a kikoshnik but in astairan bridal blue

in lieu of the astairan handfasting ribbons, a stole/scarf was used in the vasilievan tradition

MALCONAIRE STUFF

they said their traditional astairan elemental oaths before the guardians in the hearing of all

as stated above, she wore a traditional astairan gown but in vasilieva red, and a traditional vasilieva headdress but in traditional astairan blue; the (blue) belt around her waist was tied w traditional astairan (celtic) knots and the red dress was flowy and intricately embroidered (by rosie herself as a gift to her new stepmother)

they probs eschewed the handkerchief, largely bc idk what everyone's ages were but i doubt there was much hope of future children? but i might've done my math wrong hahaha if i did tho they probs ~did do that? (if i did my math right she was 38 at the time of the marriage which probs would've made having a baby a lil dangerous at that time tho its certainly not unheard of for women to have children well into their 40s even in the middle ages so???? idk!!)

they had the big wedding goose feast but out amongst the ppl ~after the wedding to again mingle traditions

the astairan guardian statue tradition was mingled w the vasilievan doll/figure one as mentioned above

bells were used as they walked down the aisle and in lieu of the vasilieva 'bitter' tradition to make the couple kiss and maintain the warding off evil astairan tradition

[azuresage]

ok heres some slightly organized notes on the new wilds stuff that ive been editing over the past few days

seems both the palico and the hunter now have spoken dialogue in the story. Before, the hunter never had a voice of their own, until risebreak added in-quest situational voice lines. Now they've gone the full mile. I'm into it.. provided we get personality options to choose from. they could do what they did for dragons dogma 2 and have personality sets with unique dialogue for each set. there should also be an option to remain silent, as well. that would be ideal. also hoping the character creator will be as in depth as dd2's...

right away, we see the hunter use the slinger for environmental effects. that's probably the most inoffensive thing they could have carried over from world... still really didn't want to see it back.

i see the new mount can scoop you up when you get downed, so wirefall is still a thing, just in a new form. looks a little more balanced, at least.

small monsters attacking a large monster in a group. that's neat. kind of like an expansion on turf wars.

we see the hunter swap from a greataword to a bowgun while riding the mount. that's pretty insane. we've never had a weapon change on the fly like that before. that's gonna be a game-changer. part of me wants to complain about it detracting from the spirit of pre-hunt preparation, but that spirit's been dead since world introduced item box and cooking at camp anyway, so i dunno how to feel...

the next thing we see is a montage of brand new moves, and possibly a stance change with the greatsword. so im going to make a guess here... rather than switch skills, we're getting stances. so it could kind of be akin to the skill swap scroll in sunbreak where you switch between two custom movesets on the fly. now we are changing our stances, and with it our movesets. i have to admit, the idea of that really gets me excited. thats just the sort of spice to the gameplay i was hoping for... if it's what they're doing. and the new greatsword moves all looked incredibly cool. i did say more command input type moves would be a satisfactory alternative to special moves. we already see three new ones for just the greatsword. the more the better. im hoping its at least three per stance. i have to say, i'm feeling optimistic about this now. its looking to be more than world 2 electric boogaloo, if this is anything to go on. ^ so they came out and said that this is called focus mode, and it... is basically what i thought it was gonna be, kind of? it still sounds cool. it slows you down and lets to target specific parts of monsters, it sounds like. that's neat. its still an alternative gameplay style. me likey that. the more move variety, the better. switching in and out of focus mode does kind of still make me think of skill swap from sunbreak, and its still got new moves to go with it. im for it.

sos flare from world is back. i just hope it doesnt suck like it did in world. rise's version of it was functionally better, id say. i hope they improved upon the mechanics of it if theyre pulling more from world than rise for this.

im gonna make an easy guess that the story is youre searching for that kid with the necklace's parents who went missing on an expedition into these "forbidden lands" as theyre apparently called. honestly as far as im concerned the story is just a set piece for the locales. the maps in world sucked, but some of them had really neat lore to go with their biomes, so if theyre continuing with that, all i can hope for is better layouts. also laughing my ass off at seikret autorunning to objectives. no thanks. that's an L. world's maps were so bad they had to introduce that to make chasing monsters through them bearable. the fact that we are doing that again doesnt inspire confidence. i also hope the story doesnt command too much attention. it was really intrusive in world/iceborne, if im being honest. risebreak did a fine enough job of it, i think. monhun really doesnt need a deep story.

in the same vein, i really do not care for how hard theyre trying to push the series to be this big triple a game that competes with god of war or something. it doesnt need 50 billion ray tracings and the ability to see pores on the skin of the npcs, who i must agree do look kind of uncanny. gemma and alma's faces look off... like. rise looked perfectly fine. the fidelity of the graphics are not that important. we dont need the bloatware. speaking of which, this game better run on steam deck just fine, or i will explode capcom. i dont want to deal with another dragons dogma 2 situation.

this deserves a separate bullet. they better keep monster hunter language as a voice option like they did for rise. im still pissed they didn't carry that into stories 2, and even more pissed they cut it out of the stories 1 remaster entirely (which was a deal-breaker on the remaster for me). dont let that die. its so cool. its a big part of the immersion and its such a charming thing about the series.

[robynbaldurlogs]

baldur log day 3

TODAY WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!! OHHH MY GOD. IM SO MAD. ok. im exaggerating but. ill get to that. so lets just go through the first couple things that happened. heres the squad. say hi intrepid heroes

so i talked to zevlor and agreed to find the goblin leader. on my way to the goblin camp i meet these people who talk about the absolute and call me a true soul after their brother dies lol.

then they say theyre looking for a survivor from the ship crash, i say i am one and..

they... wanna kill me...??? i really didnt want to but i was already in the fight so im like. whatever. sure man. so i cooked the shit out of them, duh. im curious about what their deal was though... also i had the option to ask if they knew about halsin the healer and i didnt ask which sucks cus i should have done that first also im... starting to catch on to what astarion is. if im assuming correctly. cus earlier he talked about how much he looooves rare ass meat thats "dripping" with blood and that was weird as a random comment but...

Ok. I Know What You Are.

anyways. then i meet this dog by his dead owner. befriend him. all good.

but then. i use speak to animals (with wyll) and talk to the dog. and wanting to help i yell at the corpse. because im like. I DUNNO MAN. maybe the dog will realize hes dead. but then HE GETS MAD AT ME AND TURN COMBAT MODE COMES ON. and i tried to go back and reload. i didnt want to but i also did not want to kill him. but the save was so far back. then i tried to run away with astarion but i guess running away works per character. so i thought oh maybe if i return the fight will be over.... and it wasnt....

i have never regretted something more. ohhhh i am going to show you so much love and compassion when i run this game a second time. this is the worst thing to happen to me. ever. fuck everything. i still love you scratch.

...anyways. got to the goblin camp. used a wisdom roll to convince the goblins we're good thanks to the brain tadpole. astarion commented on how we could convince anyone to do anything with the tadpoles and he was like mweheheeheh.

but of course i agree with shadowheart. cus shes goated. also id agree with that if it wasnt her either way. (ignore her looking like a swedish twink. i used disguise self and forgot to change her back) oh also we leveled up right before this hell yes

but ya then my friend speves reminded me to go back to that gate in the beginning of the game that was locked. so i went there and unlocked it with astarion. fucked up like twice but hey man its a dc 20 okay. im lucky i had vampirical fuck with me or ida never unlocked it

but yeah i went into the crypt, looted some stuff and killed a couple people. nothing bad happened in the first room and i did not have to reload.

embarrassing as fuck but yeah then i intimidated the guys outside to leave

and shadowheart said i was more cunning than i looked.... wow. thank u. im flattered. but yeah relatively short session i havent even found halsin or met karlach yet but hopefully i get that done next time. ive got a test tomorrow so im gonna fuck off and study hell yeah bitches

[orifu]

good evening my beloved chatters. its time for another episode of orifu v doccy who. this time we're tackling those first two episodes of season 1

yes, i missed wild blue yonder, the giggle and the church on ruby road. maybe ill get back to them.

anyway. to address what i said last time about the new tardis interior, i was entirely wrong. the new interior only sucks when its in apple store mode. they put in the colour and it can look gorgeous, even if its a single colour. love seeing it change.

now, in a moment for the show that i will only call "unique" the first two episodes were dropped at midnight today. im not gonna point fingers at who did what here nor am i going to speculate about disney or whatever. this is about the content of the episodes, not the whatever else. personally im ok staying up til 2am for the stuff.

space babies. that sure was an episode. i think the plot was a very interesting concept, even if its execution felt a little lackluster. the babies themselves looked fine but sounded mostly... off... but that's not really a problem.

i recognise im a mega genius but it feels like the whole thing with the bogeyman was just trying to delay the reveal of it all being mucus. it was pretty obvious pretty early on. i do like the idea of the rogue machine trying to raise the babies through bringing stories to life.

overall i think the episode was really solid. not the best but what you'd expect from doctor who. the visuals were a whole other story though -- you can really tell where the budget is going. i think this episode to me is like a 7/10. its for sure the prelude to something greater.

the devil's chord. jinkx's character is so good. i just love the camp and the whole attitude and it just works so well idk. the way she plays maestro is incredible and i love their whole character. they really carry the episode.

i dont know anything about the beatles so i cant speak to that aspect of the episode. the plot is interesting, leaning more into the fantasy aspect that neo who seeks to explore. maestro being part of the toymaker's legions is a great explanation for their presence. and, of course, more rtd foreshadowing.

i know this is gonna be controversial but being meta with the music is a really cool idea i think. the doctor who theme being played in universe like 3 times or something, ruby playing her own theme (i think) and the doctor breaking the fourth wall (the incidental music!) were executed well imo.

it's a bit of a weird contradiction how maestro destroying earth before ruby was born not affecting her while the butterfly did (is that what that tardis setting thing did?) but whatev. the whole music video at the end of the episode was unexpected but honestly just really cool. i did appreciate maestro's singing too and i feel it worked better than the doctor singing in the church on ruby road.

honestly i love how wlw is like mentioned twice in the episode but just as a normal thing. somehow to me that makes maestro mentioning the sad lesbian music just funnier that itd otherwise be. i think rep that doesnt go "wow look at me" works best as it does here. and yes, as a girl in red head, i do love lesbian heartbreak music.

even if this episode's plot was really simple in concept it doesnt feel dragged out like space babies and is overall a lot more entertaining. and, of course, more building up of whatever russell's cooking up. i think this episode is like an 8/10 for me. excited for more!

conclusion? ig? next week is moffat's episode boom. ive heard this is doctor lite (but im not sure) and apparently the whole episode is about the doctor stepping on a mine and not being able to move. i would be entirely unexcited if it werent moffat writing this episode.

doctor who clearly has a lot of threads at play between mrs flood, the whole toymaker stuff, the 14th doctor, the one who waits, the master, etc, etc, etc. i hope we manage to get a satisfying ending instead of a classic rtd deus ex machina.

i presumably have a lot more thoughts i have already forgotten or havent thunk yet. if you want to know more of my opinions, watch harbo wholmes' eventual review. we tend to agree a lot. until next week, i guess that's it. how do i end one of these posts again

[f0xd13-blog]

Literally you havs romany activists in europe tired of doing material about how what he portrays ain't real but wtv i just needed to say all of this again becausee thats the thing we cool till a certain extent

Becauae its always like that ws let it happwn and be like "lez include them and you is just ths normal paya while jews can distiguish themselves" all of sudden we are living in favelas

See their narration? Totally gonna kill them one day

So let them continue one day they wake up in hell coz they got bombed and will asl themselves why... i just needed to stress this a lil bit more

Totally playing with the likes of josephine baker, marilyn monroe, elvis and why their lives end up like me

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"Forever in our hearts..." bitch STFU this almost happened to.ms this year MAKE IT STOP NOW. Like i fucking cars bout yours fanatic ass... do you know what happens to most people that discover im a G ? Their intisre fasciantion goes away in a sec. This still happens....

I don care bout assumptions... that doesn't put a plate on my table. Actually its why im at a favela ok? Ty

Funny thing is... i uncursed michael... nobody gave me what i deserves for it fine... go give to someone else.. but don use it againts me now coz i lost all respwct fof them already

Two years doing gypsy atuff and ignoring the fact it is gypsy... incredible

Coz that's the thing not eveything is romany so whays the obsession bout doing gypsy stuff andf not mention it and put jews instead whats the fucking obsession about it??? You been through years of not doing that... even characters in marvel had some sort of reference like nightcrawler ffor example? I can notice ths difference ok??? Its litetally racism what y'all doing

So an oscar for that isrish jewish guy trying to be a gypsy coz what he put on that seriss totally uncovered it... hs probably asked a gypsy about someone that the G considers evil and so he said he couldn't talk about it and that the person is dead... what did that murphy jewish ass thought because he probably asked him about a jew on pusrpose since thats the entire reason why thoss people go visit gypsy camps it is always something jewish like they wanna find out about what they themselves did pretty pathetic.

... that money is still disappeared america don forget kay?

Nooo but fr... really Hahahahhah like... so they do all of that and then thsy coms visit us to ask what happened to us??? Ahahah oh my... what ws have to go thorugh rolls eyes

Oh and the part that we do funerals that take months to end sometimes and we couldn't speak about when thats the entire purpose of mourning like... wtf??? You think we go to a funeral and spend the entire time not speaking? A week of silence!!! Aahahah we just be there looking at each other for an entire week... makes sense

Conclusion of the conclusão; i just know everybody, not just brasil.. was having fun with funky funk beats and all of sudden this latinos from hell (puerto rico) appeared with jewish ideals and jelly of black and gypsy bootay that's all i know which explains madonna and her pillow butt pffff

Oh and yess akiira won money by exploiting ou story but on top o making sense because they are literally our yin yang racially and not religiously spwaking so it is personal at the same time (look at how my culture is seen and treated in the west) they got to the furthest side of the east while we got to the west... on top of that... he might also be my cousin i cant identify a japanese G easily i got to admit (yess they also have ethnicities wtf) and also because HE DID US JUSTICE... it was a good portrayal!!! You can see the intentions and like it or not!! So doesn't matter if you hink i should apprwciat it... i don't when it ain't portrayed right period. Go play with your irish daddy balls.

But hey this inspired me to do a movie about people who mourn others without speaking about them and a group of jews doing a funeral where they just bs there looking at each other for days on end. O bet all your experiemental artists gonna love it. Very avant garde

At least we ain't latinos from hell anymore those are the latinoa that be doing all of that bullshit

But... bomb them nonetheless i don care. Ahahhaha

Well ya because gypsies ara arabic next

They are capable of even tryinb to mess up native cultures like celts just to prove jewish shit it is incredible it gets to a point that just like putin you want to bomb because wtf why tf do we exist then?

[ocdhuacheng]

Help ok so I got my mom to read the first book of the three body trilogy (before I finished the dark forest even) and like after she said she’s gonna read it and now IM on deaths end and I’m like oh god she’s already reading the first book, which I do think she will like a lot (she did) but there is no way in hell she’s gonna like the second or third books , so im like ‘hey ma I know you’re reading it rn but I don’t really think you’ll like books 2 or 3. Not saying you can’t read them but just don’t get mad at me and say that I didn’t warn you’ because that is something she has done.

So anyway she finishes book 1 and she really enjoyed it also she said it was one of the weirdest books she ever read (and im like. Yikes. The first book is basically a cliche ya novel compared to the second and third. Not saying this as a bad thing bc I love book 1. Just like. If you think that’s weird I think your brain is gonna melt by book 3) so anyway she’s like I’m probably not gonna read book 2 and 3 but I wanna know what happens so you have to give me the run down. And I’m like there is so much bonkers shit going on in these books that there’s no way I’m gonna be able to explain everything that happens without forgetting something important.

But anyway this was a while ago and I still never got around to it. But the past couple days I decided to skim through the books again for some of the stuff I don’t remember as clearly. Bc on Wednesday we’re going camping and we’re gonna have a ~7 hour car ride and she’s like okay you’re gonna have to finally tell me the story in the car. And im like. [moment of thought] yeah ok I think 7 hours might be enough to explain everything that happens.

Anyway looking forward to it because I have literally never gotten to infodump about shit I enjoy uninterrupted for as long as I want AND with the other person willingly signing away the next several hours of their life to be at my every autistic whim and mercy without any option of escape. But I’m also nervous bc I hate letting people know my enjoyments bc I’m afraid she won’t like it and will get judgy. Boo. Anyway wish me luck

[kris-side]

ok im gonna

yell abt this stuff about Ingo and Volo to the best of my ability

do like i dont really have much of a connection to the pokemon game's protags, personally. so after i played through most of pla, i thought. i like ingo, i like volo, lets intertwine their stories some more.

so Ingo is taken to the past on accident and in the process his memories get scrambled. he spends however long in hisui before Volo came along, and he was immediately intrigued. I mean, after all, Ingo is very skilled and unafraid of pokemon unlike everyone else. he has become warden to a very picky Sneasler. he also, y'know, fell out of the sky and almost died in the snowy mountains.

So they chat. they become friends. Volo convinces Ingo to come help him gather the plates, instead of what would be the protag. So Ingo kind of takes that role, doing all the base pla story. i dont know whether or not i care for adding the original protag, but thats ok! this is just my version of this idea.

and my version is admittedly. very mean to ingo :-)

because Volo, is sly and clever and a wonderful actor. and it helps that Ingo is trusting to a fault, so long as Volo appears nice. they journy, they camp together, eat meals and listen to each others stories. it becomes comfortable, routine, intimate.

Volo, one day, pries on Ingo with a Zorua. Those sneaky foxes have been known to find something deep within your subconscious to use against you. It was a surprise to both of them when it took the form of what looked like Ingo, but dressed in white with a big smile on his face. And it was a surprise to both when Ingo ran to the figure, ready to barrel over it into a hug. Startling the Zorua in disguise, and before he knew it there was pain in his ribs as he lay crumpled on his side, gasping in pain.

Volo silently dismissed the Zorua and tended to Ingo. He was jumpy for days after, and they had to take a break from their mission.

A long break that Ingo would prefer not to have ended.

But it did, and they continued. It was ok, if it was for him.

They trained together, too. Pokemon battles and mock sparring. Exerciding together. Ingo didnt mind it, though he didnt know why Volo trained so much as well. Their relationship had become clear to him now: Ingo would protect Volo. At all costs. Nothing else mattered.

His heart had swelled the first time he realized, and later vocalized to Volo. That was the feeling, right? Maybe. His heart had beat so fast, and so hard, it felt like he was going to pass out. It felt like he had started freezing from the inside out, tiny needles prickling his skin.

But, that was fine. It was normal, even. It had to be, if Volo said ot was. And, besides, he had so many holes in his memories. Every day its so painfully apparent that he's forgotten so many things. Basic, simple things even.

Volo helps him remember, though. He's very kind like that. Ingo loves that about him.

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ok im done for now

[inhonoredglory]

ROTT: hot takes 🔥 (spoilers)

I wrote the following last Thursday, before my fandom life was waylaid by birthday shindigs for my sister and a weekend of migraines and nausea/fainting because of the COVID vaccine. I feel so out of touch w/ fandom but here’s my late but initial thoughts to ROTT if anyone’s interested LOL

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DAMN SON.

DAMN.

I saw Trollhunters: Rise of the Titans last night. Before I launch into the fandom again, I’mma share my unfiltered thoughts.

ThAT oPEnING. HOLY SHIT. It was exhilarating. Seeing all of Tales of Arcadia rush past me in 3 minutes was awesomesauuuuuce.

but guYS GUYS lemme tell you the

✨✨ABSOLUTE✨✨

✨✨✨UTTER✨✨✨

✨✨✨✨✨HIGHLIGHT✨✨✨✨✨

✨✨✨✨✨✨of MY LIFE✨✨✨✨

////oh gODS////

hearing Douxie say in that deep, grave, convicted, voice:

�� ｂｕｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｃａｎ　ｔａｋｅ　ｍｅ ❞

DOUXIE MY SELFLESS WIZARD BEAN. LIGHT OF MY LIFE. I’M DECEASED.

Because it’s scenes like this which convince me they KNOW that Selflessness Is His Thing. And that means so freaking much to me OH MY LORD.

Act 1 of ROTT was an absolute delight, let’s just say.

Men in Black!Krel

Nari!Douxie (i cANNot beLIEve THIs is a THING im in tears)

THE BARBARA/JIM REUNION!!!!!

A FREAKING STRICKLAKE ENGAGEMENT!!!!! Jim/Strickler relationship growth arc 😭😭😭

Y’ALL WE GOT JLAIRE SITTING ON A FLIPPIN’ RED ASS BED. This is the closest we’re gonna get to sex in a kid’s show.

NOT COUNTING OFC THE INSTA-STAJA-FAM CONCEPTION

should I be scared that GDT is reading the totally wack corners of mpreg AO3??!! 👀👀👀dude, like DUDE. that happened.

ELI GLOWUP !!!!! damn son u hot

also aja is such a Queen in this whole thing omg

I obvs can’t go scene by scene through this thing but––

Douxie and Nari in P A I N during the spellbreaking scene. that hurt my soul oh lordy. there must be art made

OK but then after this SHIT GETS VERY REAL. There’s a lot of Character Thematics/Arcs and Real Narrative shit I can get down into and stuff I want to think about because yEAH... wow, this movie Went There. And Back Again. (lOLJSKGSg)

I appreciate the deaths. I really do. But Strickler was a shock. Jim holding onto his mom and crying, overwhelmed with guilt, was the most Jim thing. The boy puts so much agony on himself. It’s his undoing. gAH POOR JIM.

CAN WE MAKE A NOTE THAT JIM’S RIBS WERE BROKEN/HURT throughout this entire thing??? 😭😭😭 HMmm? HMMMM!!! LOOK AT THE ANGST

Claire shadow-porting an eNTiRE TITAN. This girl is OFF THE CHARTS SJGHSBKGJMNFSBG

Nari’s death was emotional. Wow. She was being a Hero. Not running, like she said. That was a Power Growth and beautifully scored. Not to mention archie trapped forever?!!! Nooooo?!!!

They really want to take everything away from Douxie don’t they.

Jim getting Excalibur and leveling up with Akiridian armor was pRETTY SWEET. Especially ✨together✨. And everyone saying the Destiny speech. *tissues*

Act 3 finale babbaaayyyy.

CHILDREN OF THE SUN REDUX OMSKGJSGGMN HELL YEAHHHH

Jim realizing the amulet didn’t make. him a hero, HE DID. And that’s why the amulet chose him.

y’all I sobbed for tobes. that was powerful, painful, and moving. and y’know it was almost like this whole movie was an apology for treating toby like a comedic sidekick––and giving him the trollhunter mantle in the end.

like THEY VALIDATED JIM AND TOBY’s FRIENDSHIP and that cANnNOt be underestimated. Because friendship is almost ALWAYS knocked down the ladder of importance in the pantheon of human relationships, and ROTT said NO. Jim loves Toby so much that he’d change his own history and the history of the ENTIRE WORLD in order to get him back.

like, Jim, our sacrificial Hero. Deciding to truly be Atlas and take all the weight of What Could Have Been on his shoulders, because he cannot stand the losses that happened under his leadership.

this kiss tho. the absolute ANGUISH in the way jim presses himself to her face. gOD. THE PAIN. THE LOVE. THE “I LOVE YOU”

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The whole time travel twist tho. I’m kinda... not here for it?? Time travel is tricky to pull off and yeah, I think I’m in the camp that everyone’s character arcs (except Jim’s) have been retconned. It’s sad because people get connected to one another by the shared pains, joy, and experiences that brought them together, and now they’ve lost that.

But thematically and more importantly, why can’t the acceptance of death be validated? Sure, so many people dying was painful, but Let. It. Be. Painful. That’s life. TOA hasn’t shied away from dark things before. Toby and Strickler and Nomura and Nari (even Archie and Charlemagne) gave their lives; Toby became a Hero in the truest sense of the word. Let him do that, let that choice be his. In fact, it says a lot thematically about Jim’s hero complex that he cannot accept other people making heroic choices with tragic consequences. That it’s all on him. But with this ending, they do make it clear Jim’s need to be a hero is a driving obsession, and I appreciate the strength of his conviction on that identity for himself.

But the thing about retconning the anguish is that it’s telling us that bad consequences, tragedy, and loss are unacceptable in life. That just because Jim and his friends need 10 years of therapy, he should try to erase all that pain and give himself and his friends a “normal” life. No. Depression, loss, hurt... these help make us who we are; growth is about accepting them and using that pain to become better people, not invalidating them from our past.

*grumbles*

let’s be real tho: that ending was meta. it was like they were telling us fans that now WE can go create the Trollhunters we wanted to see, and fix all the things we thought went wrong. I think someone’s been reading a bunch of Trollhunter AU fics, no?

tl;dr ROTT creates more questions than it does answers and we need another show LMAO

[dailydoseofwhippedfluff]

🌕 wearing the upper moon demon’s clothes 🌑

Summary: In this imagine the reader is about 5’2 bc that’s how tall I am, so smol bb reader 🤏 You get to wear Kaigaku, Akaza, Kokushibo, and Gyutaro’s clothing 😌 they are all absolutely whipped for you 🥺 this is a soft fluffy hc so I really packed on the syrup 😭✨

Tags: fluff, kisses, soft

Warnings: none

✞ঔৣ𝓚𝓪𝓲𝓰𝓪𝓴𝓾ঔৣ✞

✞ Kai’s been gone for a few days and you missed him

✞ You grabbed one of his many extra Yakatas from the closet

✞ Stuffing your face it still smelled like him

✞ Taking a deep breath while you had your face stuffed into the collar was nice

✞ It smelled like soap and fresh rain, a very subtle and soft comfort

✞ IMAGINE SNUGGLING INTO HIS YUKATA WHILE HE OFF FIGHTING DEMON SLAYERS BECAUSE YOU MISS HIM 🥺

✞ when he comes home he just sees you curled up in his yukata

✞ THEN HE SNUGGLES YOU AND KISSES YOUR FACE AND ASKS “did you miss me baby?” IM— 🥺

✞༒𝓐𝓴𝓪𝔃𝓪༒✞

✞ THIS MF (I love him so much—)

✞ okokokok, the scene: y’all are messing around and rough housing near a body of water

✞ he playfully pushes you into the water buT his dumb lizard brain didn’t think about ho w fr eak in g C O LD it is

✞ IT DRENCHED YOUR CLOTHES BUT YOU DIDNT HAVE ANY CLOTHES TO CHANGE INTO

✞ so he’s like “chill babe I got this” and picks you up bridal style to his humble abode and since you have nothing that i sn t wet to change into you have to change into his pants

✞ HE THINKS YOUR SO CUTE WHEN YOU WALK OUT OF THE SHOWER AND HAVE TO KEEP PULLING HIS PANTS UP ONTO YOU BECAUSE THEY’RE TOO BIG AND WONT STAY ON

✞ he literally has no self control and will jump onto you the moment he sees you

✞ he gives you a bunch of kisses and tells you how adorable he thinks you are in his clothes and how you need to wear them more often 🥺

✞ knowing him tbh it’ll probably get a lil steamy ☁️

✞✞𝓚𝓸𝓴𝓾𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓫𝓸✞✞

✞ so he wanted to go camping with you but you forgot to pack sleeping bags and stuff to keep you from freezing to death 😬

✞ it doesn’t bother him but your freezing SO HE OFFERS YOU HIS JINBEI TOP

✞ you take it and it’s suuuppper warm and smells just like him 🥺 it smells like cinnamon but it’s also super big on you and it covers up your hands completely and goes mid thigh

✞ YOU LOOK OVER AT HIM AND HIS EARS ARE BRIGHT RED BUT HE HAS A HAND OVER HIS MOUTH

✞ almost all of his eyes are looking away but the bottom ones keep on trying to look at you

✞ YOU MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH THE BOTTOM ONE AND HE QUICKLY LOOKS AWAY, he got even redder

✞ HIS WHOLE FACE IS BEET RED AND HES JUST THINKING ABOUT HOW TINY AND INNOCENT YOU LOOK

✞☬𝓖𝔂𝓾𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓸r☬✞

✞ this one is a little ooc pls forgive me

✞ Greasy little famine boy

✞ h e, ok listen—

✞ I feel like— he doesn’t have any other pants

✞ He never washes those and you can’t change my mind

✞ So like— as much as I would love to wear his clothes (if they weRE cLEaN) this one is gonna he him wearing your clothes 😌✨

✞ H e— ok so you’ve been out of town visiting family, and since he’s a demon he can’t come :,(

✞ So he goes through the laundry of yours and finds a hoodie that smells like you

✞ So he puts it on

✞ It’s very short on his long boi bod and looks less like a hoodie and more like a crop top

✞ but it is also very loose because he is liTteRaLLY sKin anD bOnES

✞ he looks ridiculous

✞ BUT HES JUST SNUGGLING IN YOUr BED WITH HIS HEAD IN THE HOODIE AND HES BIG SAD PUPPY

✞ a nd he hears the doOR unLoCK

✞ HE JUMPS UP AND RUNS INTO YOU AS YOU OPEN THE DOOR AND YOU BOTH ARE JUST LAYING ON THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF YOUR HOUSE

✞ AND HE IS JUST PUTTING ALL HIS WEIGHT ON YOU (which isn’t much but he’s strong boi and won’t let you push him off)

✞ HES JUST SNUGGLING INTO YOUR NECK AND PURRING CUZ HES SO HAPPY YOUR HOME

✞ if you comment on the fact he’s wearing your hoodie a lil blush will shade his cheeks 🥺

[mizunetzu]

Maybe some Kuroo x Male reader,, I just need some of my boy 😩

Of course !!! Kuroos the HOMIE I tell you-

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Kuroo x reader - I’m not gay

⚠️ Warnings - Confused reader, pretty much none

Prounouns - Male, He/Him

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I’m not gay,

is what (y/n) told himself, at age 7.

He was over at his friends house, deciding on a movie to watch before they had to go to sleep.

When he held up a rather feminine looking cd, one of them snickered, and the other didn’t even spare it a glance.

“(Y/n)- thats for girls!”

“I-I know that! Shut up! It...it looked interesting...”

“Kuroo-give (y/n) a break...” Kenma murmured, looking up from his Ds briefly.

——

I’m not gay,

Is what (y/n) told himself, in his third year of Junior high school.

He wasn’t going to lie when he said he was a bit curious about the topic, but he’d never considered himself being attracted to the same gender.

Which is why he asked his close female friend if he could kiss her.

It was an odd question, but (y/n) needed to settle something within himself. Just a quick peck on the lips to see if the feelings would go away.

(Y/n) was rather surprised when she nodded yes, because people usually say no when people ask you to kiss them. But he wasn’t disappointed, no.

She leaned up on her tippy toes, pressing a chaste kiss onto (y/n’s) lips, before settling back down on the balls of her feet and hiding her flushed face with the mass of her uniforms sleeves. She peeked through her fingers to see (y/n’s) eyes fixed on the ground in front of him, with a distasteful frown gracing his features.

That didn’t feel right, (y/n) thought.

——

I’m...im not....

Is what (Y/n) told himself, during his second year of high school.

He was in the volleyball club in his school, and the intrusive thoughts hadn’t cross his mind since back in junior high. It was actually going pretty good.

He only had one girlfriend the entire time he was in high school, but he ended it pretty quickly to focus on himself, his feelings, and building Nekoma’s defense. (Hell yeah, sports!!)

Nekoma had a training camp where other schools were invited, which is how he found himself sitting in a circle with a few other teammates and managers, playing ‘never have I ever’.

Most of Nekoma was crowded in the circle, with some stragglers from fukurodani, and Tanaka with Nishinoya and Hinata.

The managers from other schools, both fukurodani’s managers, along with Kyoko and Yachi were there too. (Y/n) was pretty sure that Tanaka, Nishinoya, and maybe Yamamoto were only there to “protect Kiyoko Senpai”, but hey, at least they had more players that way.

People went around saying things like “never have I ever cheated on an exam”, “never have I ever served straight to the libero,” or “never have I ever been the cause of bokutos emo mode”

(That question itself put bokuto in his emo mode)

(Y/n) was the only one who had all fingers up, followed by Kuroo, who had only 2 fingers down, then Akaashi, with 4 fingers down.

It was going pretty smoothly until Yukie, one of Fukurodani’s managers, asked,

“Never have I ever had a crush on someone in this circle.”

Not many people put a finger down, but the question made (y/n’s) questionable thoughts come back in a flash. It forced him to think if he did find any of the girls in the circle attractive, and after ruling all them out, he, half jokingly, turned his attention to the boys.

His eyes drifted from each of the volleyball players, until his eyes landed on Kuroo.

Kuroo. One of his childhood friends. Someone he, regretfully, considered attractive. I mean, he had a nice build, he was in the college preparatory classes, and his thighs could crush-

No, shut up. He’s a man.

You’re a man.

....What the fuck?

(Y/n) didn’t even notice his finger fold itself in, until everyone gasped and started berating him with squeals and questions.

“Who is it?!?”

“It better not be Kiyoko Senpai!”

“It has to be to be Kaori, (Y/n’s) been talking to her alooooot lately!”

He couldn’t help but scrunch up his nose at the idea of dating one of Fukurodani’s managers.

“It’s...it’s not Kaori, no offense but I’d never date Kaori...” (Y/n) mused out as nonchalantly as he could. The second those words flew out of his mouth, he regretted not pretending it was Kaori, so they could drop the topic.

Everyone’s comments went in one of (y/n’s) ear and out the other, until yaku cleared his throat and said,

“If it’s not any of the managers, is it a guy then?”

All of the questions died down almost instantly. (Y/n) felt his blood ran cold.

“I mean...is it?” Akaashi broke the silence, maintaining direct eye contact with (y/n).

I’m not too sure with myself, (y/n) thought, chuckling dryly.

With (y/n’s) answer, or lack thereof, everyone started listing off the boys names or saying “is it me?? If it is sorry dude! Haha..” or some variations of that.

(Y/n) felt like he was going to combust with all the “is it —?’s” and “is it me’s??” He never wanted to think about it again, yet here he was, being-

“Is it Kuroo?” Bokuto grinned, half joking, gesturing to the 3rd year sitting right next to him.

(Y/n’s) eyes widened comically. Was it Kuroo?

He wasn’t sure why this one flushed him so bad. His hands started trembling from their spot in the air, and a red tint spread across his face like a virus. He knew he admired his captain, but having a full blown crush on him? He didn’t dare look up at everyone’s prying gaze, instead suddenly finding immense interest in a broken seam in his red volleyball shorts.

“Oh my god, it is Kuroo!” Someone squealed, probably someone like Bokuto. All their voices seemed to merge together and sound the same. People were gasping, nudging (y/n’s) shoulder, or saying stuff like “I support you!!” Or “you too would be soooo cute together!”

(Y/n) brought his fingers down and entangled them in his sweaty hair. “I’m..I’m not gay. I’m not...” (Y/n) rasped out defensively, trying to convince himself more than anyone else.

Warm hands grasped his wrists, pulling them away from (y/n) gently, forcing him to look up. Kuroo held a shit eating grin that made (y/n’s) stomach churn in both a good way and a horrible, horrible way.

“Oi oi, it’s ok to like boys (y/n)-what, are you in denial or someth-“

“Shut up! I’m straight, and I don’t like you! Don’t touch me!” (Y/n) suddenly lashed out, whipping his wrists out from Kuroo’s hold. He stood up abruptly, choked out a weak “I’m gonna get some fresh air” and staggered out of the room.

No one seemed to notice that Kuroo had put a finger down, as well.

——

Im not gay. I’m not gay. I’m not gay.

Is what (y/n) repeatedly told himself, in the bathroom.

(Y/n) threw water onto his face, before slapping his cheeks as hard as he can. He then backed into the bathroom wall and let himself sink down to the cold floor tiles.

“Goddamit...nnNNFUCK!” (Y/n) dug both his fists into the dirty bathroom floor. His hands stung from the impact. A sigh escaped from his lips as he hid his sopping wet face into his hands.

“What...the fuck...I’m not...they’re just...just stupid! Yeah! They’re stupid and I don’t have a crush on stupid Kuroo! Yeah! Y-Yeah..! .....Yeah...”

He sat in silence for what seemed like forever, before he got sick of listening to his own thoughts. He shakily brought himself up to his feet, and exited the bathroom.

——

Im not gay,

Is what (y/n) told himself, more calmly than before, heading towards the sleeping rooms with a stable smile.

He almost made it scott-free before he felt a hand firmly grasp his shoulder.

“Hey.”

(Y/n) didn’t dare to turn around.

“I...they..might’ve jumped to conclusions, but I really need to know.”

Do you now? Cause I’d like to know, too.

A heavy silence consumed both of them whole. Kuroo forced (y/n) to turn around, tilting his head up with his finger.

“Do you like me.” It was more like a statement than a question.

“I...i don’t know? I think? Maybe?? I-I’m not sure...” Kuroos serious gaze boor holes into (y/n’s) face.

“You don’t know?”

“I don’t know! I mean-I’ve always thought about it, but I never considered that I could be...y’know...and I never really thought about you like that till Bokuto brought it up...”

Kuroo was tacken aback by the sudden raise in pitch, but quickly regained his neutral expression.

“Kiss me.”

It was (Y/n’s) turn to be shocked.

“What-“

“You heard me.”

“You can’t be serious,” (y/n) awkwardly chuckled. He ran fingers through his hair. “Kuroo, hey-“

The middle blocker grabbed hold of the (h/c) boy. He yelped and struggled in his grasp, but Kuroo held his hand firm.

“You don’t know how you feel about me, right? Do you want your answer or not?”

It was rare moments like these where Kuroo wasn’t being smug, or wearing his shit-eating grin, that ignited a confusing flame inside (y/n’s) chest and/or dick. (Y/n) let out a shaky breath.

“Yeah, fine-whatever lets get it over with.” (Y/n) grumbled, red in the face.

Kuroo took hold of (y/n’s) chin with his thumb and index finger, and snaked his other arm around the boys waist. He leaned in slowly, letting their lips meet in the middle.

This didn’t feel similar to the kiss he had in junior high. It felt better. It didn’t feel forced or boring like it did when he kissed that girl, this one feels nice. (Y/n) let his eyes flutter closed while he clutched Kuroos shoulders weakly.

Kuroo began to pull away, but (y/n) whimpered and lunged forward to connect their lips once more. It was a sensation that he never wanted to let go of, but of course, air was also something he couldn’t live without.

They pulled away simultaneously, (y/n) very obviously heaving while Kuroo let out a few deep exhales.

“So...” Kuroo said, wiping spit from his swollen red lips. “How do-“

“I love you.” (Y/n) said, testing the words out on his tongue.

“Hm?” Kuroos vague response dug a pit into (y/n’s) stomach. Did I misread this situation?

(Y/n) broke into a cold sweat. “Aah...I mean-I think, no hard feelings if you don’t like dudes-I mean I just found out myself so it’s all good-“ Kuroos booming, stupid hyena laugh broke (y/n) out of his rambling session. (Y/n) looked up at the middle blocker, and slowly relaxed and let himself smile at his antics.

“You really think too much...” Kuroo said, wiping an invisible tear from his eye. “Don’t worry, I like you too~”

He patted the boy on his head, as (y/n’s) cheeks flushed involuntarily.

I could be gay,

(Y/n) told himself, hand in hand with his newly found boyfriend, Kuroo Tetsurō.

And that’s fine by me.

———————

Extra:

“Get it, (y/n)! Kuroo! Use a condom boys!” Bokuto yelled, from behind a gym wall with Akaashi. The two turned around, surprised.

“Sorry. Bokuto was curious when you said ‘I need to find my new boyfriend, I’ll be right back’, and left.” Akaashi said, fiddling with his ring finger.

“It’s fine. I wasn’t lying when I said ‘new boyfriend’ though, huh, (Y/n)?” Kuroo smirked, slapping his ‘new boyfriend’ firm on the ass. (Y/n) gave a yelp before blushing and clutching the spot where Kuroo smacked.

It would’ve been fine if it was a normal person who slapped him, but in his case, it wasn’t.

But let me tell you, volleyball players spikes are very, very hard. And Kuroo was no exception.

There was a hand-shaped mark on (Y/n’s) ass for a week straight.

————————

[lilyclawthorne]

Keeping Up A-fear-ance's Thoughts

I finished writing this shortly after 3 am after watching the new episode like three times because I simply had too much energy about it and I have so many thoughts because I simply live for clawthornes and also I tried to break it up with more photos this time sorry not sorry if it's a lot ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

YOUNG EDA!! let me just say I am quite a fan of opening with a flashback like we've done here and the last episode

"we have never seen a curse like this before" Lilith you had shit luck picking out curses huh

"cut it out if we have to" goddamn Gwen let'a calm the fuck down a bit.

anyways we've only really seen young Eda as a wild and confident and happy little child so I appreciate seeing this side of her with the anxiety and fear she's feeling here. I love seeing what the curse stuff was like for her as a kid

Gwen: I raised a perfectly fine kid

Me: no you didn't look at her she's got anxiety

I'm guessing this is their backyard or just some woods behind their house?? wonder if the portal was placed there by another elder family member.

lmao I can't even begin to imagine what small Eda experiencing the human realm was like for the first time

Gwens giving me "I can't accept that my child is disabled/chronically ill/etc." here. y’know the kinda parent that'll put their kid through hell over something they probably will find a way to learn to live with (which Eda did do)

ok that's it I humbly request to know the story behind the fang now (also the noise she made when she put it in was freaking cute)

new dress! new boots! new dress! new boots!

..yikes that fridge is empty

"calm down the curse acts stronger when you're stressed" Eda do you know who you're talking to here

confirmation losing limbs is in fact a side effect of the curse!! (y'know since Eda originally said it just happens when you get older)

please I love these sisters they're so sweet and make me wanna go 🥺

"suddenly curious about my past" "always. always curious" Luz says exactly what we all think

witchlet?? sweet flea?? she's got pet names for them 🥺 (although idk how much I'd like to be referred to as any kind of flea sorry Lilith)

ok Gwen is very much not close to what I expected and I'm kinda grateful for that

she's more like super caring but still managed to royally fuck up which was my original head canon for clawthorne parents so uh that's cool. but literally, look at their body language, Eda's pissed, Lilith's sad and making herself small. she's clearly messed up with her parenting on both of them along the way.

"who knows what they put in those nasty concoctions?" mama clawthorne would be a fucking anti-vaxxer wouldn't she

ok I side with Eda here more than Luz and Lilith. just because Luz misses her mother, or Lilith hasn’t seen their mom in so long doesn’t mean Eda has to feel all grateful for the presence of Gwen, especially if the woman has caused her a lot of trouble over the years

I feel like the fact that its actually both Lilith and Gwendolyn have spent their whole lives dedicated to trying to find a cure could probably have held some kind of weight on Eda at some point. Even though she shouldn't feel guilty or responsible for that, I still feel like it's gotta suck knowing these people have spent so much time on something you know is likely never gonna happen, all for you.

Lilith 😞 her mother really just didn't pay attention to her all these years

hey if this guy does some next level healing magic then why isn't he more well-known, huh? why’d it take so long to come across him?? Gwen do you know what the fuck you're doing cause I think you don't

Lilith just because you're depressed about your mom doesn't mean you have to bring king down too 😠

SUPER irrelevant but is anyone else just bothered by the way Lilith is holding her spoon?? that doesn't seem like a comfortable way to hold a spoon. also is she left handed??

"knife season came early" EDA WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. is this a boiling isles things or is this a it’s common for people to throw knives at you thing

also I want to be surprised Eda fell for the apple blood signs but I am not 😔 

Luz please trust you're gut on this one and not mama clawthorne

ok now I need to know why the fridge was empty but they had 18 cartons of ice cream this is why you guys don't have food you're wasting it all on ice cream.

wow never thought I'd see the day hooty became the voice of reason

also, night market ice cream?? are they implying this ice cream is like, edibles of some sort?? Lilith does seem kinda high here ngl. idk man but at least she wants to stand up for herself so good for her.

PLEASE kings just offering her ice cream while she transforms

"first in a series" Gwen honey oh no. you've been duped. I think we can see where Lilith got her naïveté from huh.

Also, nice snatch Luz 😊

anyways love how this show is basically making fun of moms who refuse to give their kids proper medical treatment or listen to medical professionals here

EXCUSE ME why do we know Gwen's palisman's name before we know Lilith's?????

"I am a mother who'll do anything for her daughter" you're mom who's suffocating obsession with one daughter has left the other neglected and is currently causing her to turn into a full on beast ya dummy

Eda DOES have a right to be upset. it sucks that her own valid emotions that she should get to feel will cause her while body to betray her.

PLEASE I’M SO GLAD LILITH’S BEAST DESIGN LOOKS LIKE HER AND IS NOT THE THING FROM THE TRAILER THAT IS ACTUALLY IN EDA"S HEAD WHEN SHE’S TRANSFORMED

but also why is she SO massive?? also anyone concerned that this is her first transformation and the light glyph trick wouldn't even work??

Gwen look at what you've done, you've fostered feelings of inferiority in one daughter causing her to feel the need for sibling rivalry that the pure instincts of the raven beast cannot suppress no matter how much their sisterly relationship had improved.

HOW COULD YOUR OTHER DAUGHTER ALSO BEING CURSED BE A PART OF THE PROCESS GWEN??

"after Eda was cursed, I joined the beast keeping coven" woah woah WOAH. you're telling me you only joined because of trying to help Eda. that covens existed, before Eda got cursed, and you very much weren't a part of one. combine that with "some words for belos" she has and do I smell wild witch theory still plausible???

anyways at least mama clawthorne is getting some sense into her head here

Morton c'mon help a girl out, that's some dang good art too what the heck dude

ok fine mama clawthorne to the rescue

no pls not raven beast Lilith crying im crying now

Gwen: I raised a fine and self-sufficient child

Me: no you didn't look at her. she's got, SO MUCH.

GODDAMN THATS SOME POWER. ngl this only adds fuel to the fire in my head that there was some kinda reasoning these sisters were torn apart, that someone felt they'd be too powerful together (and they were probably right)

"I heard you but I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't do anything" may be just because she's not used to the curse but again part of me is concerned that because she couldn't pull herself out of it even a little bit like Eda did that there's something wrong there. but she also could've been stressed beyond reasonably calming herself down too.

ok but this is sweet

NOOO im so sad Lilith's leaving :( I literally cried ok

"you lived here?" fine OKAY king that was hilarious even if im sad about this

"reconnect with dad" excuse me where the fuck has this man been in the middle of all of this. curse shit is going DOWN and he's just chilling at home.

I am curious about people's thoughts regarding the whole Lilith regression thing and the fact that she's literally going to be living with her parents again. I feel like it could help nurture that inner child she's been reverting back to and help her out a LOT. but I could also be concerned about it feeding into the regression and making it worse?? idk and this show probably ain't getting that actually deep into psych anyways

"some day my hair is gonna be big enough to do that too" Luz I cannot wait for the day. also mood, I wish I could do that too.

alright who's holding the fucking pen for hooty we need a volunteer RIGHT NOW so we can remain in contact with Lulu

NOT THE ONLY HUMAN? my bets on the real azura rip never mind she said he

Titan’s Blood?? interesting. If the blood of the titan is around I wonder what that means regarding the titans existence, and how long its been since the titan fell.

AHH BABY LUZ PHOTO

ALSO WHO THE FUCK IS THAT?? They're really gonna spring that on us like this??? Camila's gotta notice somethings wrong right??? Unless any differences she just chalks up to the camp?? oh god :(

well, anyways lumity shippers come get yo juice next weekend

anyways im gonna need to add a NOT canon compliant tag on that one Gwendolyn fic I wrote because it definitely do not comply anymore

[adamsvanrhijn]

not to be very annoying, but do you happen to know any good books/resources about lgbt slang/identities in victorian/edwardian/etc england? (i mean, things such as lesbians calling each other "toms" and the like). don't worry if you don't know any, but i just figured i'd ask since this was kinda in your Area Of Interest so you might know some off the top of your head.

the not annoying at all but this is a more complex question than at first glance hahaha

TL;DR: there are many types of queer language / we have way more info about men, who have their own lexicon / this era is widely seen as the era in which the concept of identity is actually coming into play / books list at the end, scroll down til you reach bolded text if you don’t want my commentary.

so when you’re looking at mid 19th - interwar lgbt communities, whether in europe or the uk or the usa it doesn’t really matter bc this is quite universal, you’ve got at least three registers, for lack of an easier word:

how self-identified homosexual, inverted, queer, abnormal etc men (henceforth gay men) speak with each other

how self-identified “” women (henceforth lesbian women) speak with each other

interactions between these groups

these naturally intersect with other socioeconomic class factors.

back to england specifically:

despite legal considerations gay men have the most agency and ability to move around and therefore are more likely to interact with each other and form communities. so now you have additional registers:

upper middle / upper class

middle / lower middle / working class (more registers here but nobody asked me and i promise i will give you recs soon)

again, interactions between them

the latter category has limited applications; most of them have to do with prostitution or casual sex and tend to be about categorizing people in terms of what sex acts they participate in. (this is universally true of most forms of gay slang and/or their origins for obvious reasons) think locker room talk. OR, we’re looking at cross class relationships and how other people view members of cross class relationships. not to generalize bc there are other things than this but what is best documented here is the upper class pov of these interactions

for the first category there is much less slang & unique community language, when you look at letters and works of literature etc etc people are picking and choosing from both medical/psychiatric terminology, which is developing rapidly from the 1860s on, and like, classical works; you get a lot of alluding to things. artistic communities (bloomsbury group, natalie clifford barney’s harem in paris and what have you) meanwhile are sort of all over the map. but bc this isn’t Polite Society talk, most of the sources for this kind of language tend to be limited in scope. which is true for all subculture language really but like in this case, authors of the day who are writing what they know are we think giving a pretty accurate picture of what their actual communities were like... but it’s put through a filter for publication.

by the 20th century urban working class gay men in certain circles are using polari, a subcultural lexicon which came from mid/late 19th century theatre and music hall slang, which came from fairground cant, seafaring , labor slang, Yiddish, cockney, theatre slang, fishmarkets, French, Italian, underground crime rings literally i could go on and there’s lots of debate about this. it’s turn of the century when it comes to be used very widely within the gay community, and while its origins are in london it made it to other uk urban centres fairly quickly. this lasted well into the latter half of the 20th century and is the base for a lot of community slang today, which leads me to

lesbian women, who also used polari, albeit to a lesser extent. these were primarily lesbians who were also in the 3rd camp above - ones who are involved in the community and interacting w/ gay men regularly. (”straight women who work in theatre” is another category of woman polari speakers haha but performance slang went thru many changes and eventually things got p separate so you had fairground & theatre cant and gay subculture slang having similar roots but very distinct in usage)

for lesbian communities the same thing as w gay men applies for the upper classes just to a lesser degree due to the relative lack of a community experienced by women

but a very important point here is that, ESPECIALLY during the victorian period, less so moving into the 20th century, intimate relationships between women are viewed very, very differently than those between men - male relationships have hard and fast boundaries of what is and isnt acceptable, those of women do not. 

the development of identity w/ sexuality for women i think in many ways had a lot more to do with women who expressed their gender differently than women who had intimate exclusive relationships w/ other women 

anyway the point is there unfortunately is no like comprehensive text for All Queer Language at this point in time, nor for the development of sexual identity, and the nature of this field (linguistics + history + sociology about queer stuff) means that a lot of the good work is in academic articles which i do NOT know off the top of my head. :-( but here’s some stuff !!

LIST OF THE ACTUAL BOOKS SORRY ABOUT ALL THAT

ok so these are all nonfiction, mostly academic nonfiction, but i want to stress that contemporary literature is a REALLY good way to get a (often rose tinted but not always) look into subculture and there are many novels that play with and/or poke at the ongoing development of sexual identity, especially in edwardia, especially especially in the 1920s, so if youve got endless time to read on your hands it is absolutely worth poking around there.

i have a list in the works of 1920s literature that has lgbt stuff in it and i realise thats a bit late for you but even so!!

also: compilations of letters, memoirs, etc are like super super invaluable 

anyway ive bolded the most important ones:

Kosofsky Sedgwick, Eve. Epistemology of the Closet. 1990. University of California Press. [required lgbt theory reading, literally the foundation for soooo much]

Marcus, Sharon. Between Women: Friendship, Desire, and Marriage in Victorian England. 2007. Princeton University Press.

Robb, Graham. Strangers: Homosexual Love in the Nineteenth Century. 2003. [this is like, functionally prerequisite reading for any gay male stuff for the 19th century & robb is an excellent popular historian who also has an actual academic background]

Rupp, Leila J. Sapphistries: A Global History of Love between Women. 2008. NYU Press.

Russett, Cynthia. Sexual Science: The Victorian Construction of Womanhood. 1989. Harvard University Press. [touches on things but is not About sexuality/identity]

these are both already on my downton abbey research list but they both discuss language thruout and identity very thoroughly:

Brady, Sean. Masculinity and Male Homosexuality in Britain, 1861-1913. 2005. Palgrave Macmillan.

David, Hugh. On Queer Street: A Social History of British Homosexuality 1895-1995. 1997. HarperCollins.

for polari, see basically everything paul baker’s done. the 2019 might be the most accessible but i havent read it yet:

Baker, Paul. Fantabulosa: A dictionary of Polari & gay slang. 2002. London: Continuum.

Baker, Paul. Polari: The Lost Language of Gay Men (Routledge Studies in Linguistics). 2002. London: Routledge.

Baker, Paul. Fantabulosa! The Story of Polari, Britain’s Secret Gay Language. 2019. London: Reaktion.

while it predates the era youre asking about, this book is good reading that leads up to the changes of the victorian era in sexual morality & how that affects identity and language:

Donoghue, Emma. Passions Between Women: British Lesbian Culture 1668–1801. 1995. HarperCollins.

also i hate to do this but like. foucault lol. obviously not focused on britain but very much focused on the development of identity and sexuality. 

ive been working on this for like three straight hours im gonna go eat lunch now

[plutowrites]

AHHH PLUTO okok I’m definitely requesting something from my mf baby 😤❣️

Okok we already know who I’m picking this with... but to be safe Levi LMAO

My pronouns are she/they so she is fine 🤠❣️

OKOK for starters I’m an INFP ! Personality wise with people I don’t know very well they do say I’m a little blunt and I come off harsher than I mean to and I have a very dominant personality, like I’m not at all afraid to call shit out if I see it and be honest with people! But I also think I’m a very kind and devoted person! With my friends and people I talk to though I’m very loud and I feel like I can be a lot sometimes LMAO, I’m just a loud goofy person :)

I’m also very awkward though like “🧍🏻‍♀️”at its finest in social situations that aren’t with work, I’m not very good at reading social queues which is probably why I’m very blunt a lot of the time and harsh on accident cause I don’t mean to be!! I’m just talking!!

I think I’m pretty funny too 🤓

Generally people either think I’m v sweet or mean and idk where that puts me LMAO

Hobbies 🥸 this is so hard always pls but I like artsy stuff -we know this- and I really like the outdoors!! Camping??? Yeah sign me tf up ! I MF LOVE ROADTRIPS I love every part!! The long drives and the scenery and the hotel and the stupid souvenirs it’s just ugh I love it :)

Looks; ok now listen, I am 5’9” and like a half,,, I know Levi is like 5’3 on a good day but IDC‼️I love my lil shorty❣️❣️For looks idk what else to say besides the fact that body wise i’d say I’m like curvy but I have kind of muscular/thick thighs from when I did rugby -that I am a teensy bit insecure about- and that’s just kind of how I’ve always been built man 🧍🏻‍♀️ features wise I have curly black hair and brown eyes and uhhh a beauty mark right by my lip like a Marilyn Monroe one idk what else to say face wise LMAO 😶

Ok I WONT put smoothie as my fav dessert cause apparently that don’t count 🙄✋🏼‼️ so it’d have to be like strawberry anything 🤓❣️ besides ice cream 😶 like strawberry cheesecake! That’s good there we go :)

OK I HOPE THIS WASNT TOO MUCH I LOVE YOU PLUTO PLS IM SO EXCITED

HI LOVE I kinda went off bc you gave me so much to work with ❤️🥺 and while i was writing everything i was like damn...im starting to have feelings for bunny too LMAOO

ANYWAYSS i hope you enjoy 😘

Random Headcanons

Levi and you started dating because all your mutual friends were pushing you guys together and it got to the point where the two of you were so frustrated and were all like fine, LET’S JUST DATE

But then he started to really make you feel ushy gushy feelings…..and you started to make him feel such strong and intense emotions

Whenever the two of you hung out he would bring you snacks that he saw you eating (and enjoying) before. Like y’all will go on a hike and he’ll pull out gummies from his pocket or a random ass drink for you

“Where did that come from?”

“Just take it idiot.”

“Are you sure?”

“I brought it for you.”

 He’ll get so shy then after realizing what he said and he vows to himself to never be soft like that again but then he can’t help it when he’s around you. Poor bby just wants to make you so happy.

He loves listening to you talk and it doesn’t matter what you talk about, he just loves listening to you go on and on ESPECIALLY if it’s something that makes you excited 

You just do something to him when he sees your eyes go all wide and you start to use your hands to speak and he’s freaking out in the inside bc he thinks you’re so perfect but on the outside he looks so nonchalant as he drinking his fourth cup of tea of the day

He’s gonna look forward to your stories, and he especially loves your work ones except when ppl are making your job hard for you

He gets all annoyed that he can’t be there to tell them to fuck off 

I know you said your thighs were a bit of an insecurity for you but if you let Levi find out he’ll make sure you know he loves them and you’re perfect just the way you are

One of his favourite things to do is just lay down on them, head in your lap and he gets to just look up at you and be at peace

He doesn’t communicate his feelings 24/7, he would much rather show you how much he adores you

I feel like he’ll love to give you massages? The two of you will be watching a movie together and he’ll pull your feet onto his lap and just rubs them, or he’ll grab your hand and massage them for you

OUU you’ll be like ugh my hands are kinda dry and he’ll be like bet and leaves the room then comes back with lotion and rubs it on for you 

“I can do that myself, ya know?”

“Tch. Why do it when I can do it, brat?”

OMG you guys watch shows together and he would be so HURT if you watch an episode without him

He’ll come back home from work and see you watching the latest episode and his face will fall and he’ll just retreat back to the room without speaking to you LMAO

You have to promise to never do it again and give him lots of kisses. He’ll act super annoyed but he would forgive you in the first 5 seconds

GIRL he’s gonna love playing with your hair, he is lowkey (highkey) OBSESSED with touching your curls

Tries to do this at night though so he doesn’t ruin your hair for the day

Omg i’m writing a lot AHH 

Levi loves how easy it is to be around you and how effortless it is to love you

He’s not into the theatrics and he hates unnecessary drama so when he’s able to find someone he can be 100% himself around without worrying about rubbing them the wrong way with his personality...he’s so hooked

He appreciates your bluntness! He doesn’t like when people beat around the bush, he prefers someone who is always honest even if it comes off harsh! He’s the same exact way!

HE simply adores your beauty mark, you’ll just catch him sometimes looking at it (and your lips ofc) he thinks it super adorable but he also won’t be super obvious about it

He hates how much money you spend on iced coffees, he always wonders why you can’t make it at home like how he makes his tea at home

You’ll walk through the door and he sees a cup in your hands

“Didn’t I buy you an iced coffee this morning? You still haven’t finished it?”

“No, this is another one.”

“You’re 90% iced coffee at this fucking point.” 

One day he gets so fed up and he just buys all the ingredients to make your iced coffee at home and I’m not talking about him getting some basic instant coffee and some creamer, this man is ordering all the flavours you like

You like hazelnut syrup? He got it. Caramel? He ordered it. You like sweet cream cold foam on top? He bought a milk frother.

He’ll tell you he regrets it later on bc of how much space everything takes up

“Our kitchen turned into a shitty ass starbucks” 

He doesn’t actually regret it tho, he knows how much you love it and that’s enough to make him feel satisfied 

How Levi asks you to be his valentine

This man just straight up texts you! (see image below)

PLS Levi acts so hard but in reality he is so soft for you

After he presses send he constantly checks for your reply

Jumping to his phone when he feels a vibration in his pocket and then gets disappointed when it’s not you texting him back

How Levi spends Valentine’s day with you

For the valentine’s day itself he plans a road trip for the two of you and even though the destination is breathtaking and gorgeous, you can’t help but to think the best part was the journey

[silvermuffins]

NieR:Automata: get me out get me OUT OF HELL

Sidequest hell, specifically. WIll there be more plot tonight? Iunno!

- where'd I leave off, gonna go talk to anemone? and then hit up the forest

- yep anemone sure did work with A2

- anemone doesn't know shit about the current A2 situation....

- god i need to farm up a lot of shit for my weapons

- do....i need to go kill animals for this quest

- gets a little lost but gets there eventually

- oh fuck moose machine

- OH FUCK IT'S LEVEL 40-SOMETHING

- OW IT HITS HARD

- OW MY THUMB

- WHY'S IT ALWAYS MEESES

- we have navigated to a part of the area where i can't see SHIT through the bushes

- also my pause screen is currently full of animal butt

- and the beast machine's record is pain, of course

- and now we break for meal

- well over an hour and closer to two later i have had the foodstuffs as humans do, let's get back to no humans. i got a couple more hours in me.

- "how can you love animals and not bat an eye at the death of another machine?" .....the androids, made by humans, don't get that.....and yet, it's kind of a very human thing

- kind of. i like to think the vast majority of people couldn't hear about something like that and be unfazed.

- ah this quest is the new resistance camp

- i. look like someone who cares very deeply about gastronomy.

- who cares very deeply

- about gastronomy

- GASTRONOMY

- CAN I EVEN ACTUALLY EAT????

- okay no mackerel end proved that i can, and that i can taste, but

- why.....would one robot assume this of another.....

- yeah i can do a spot of hunting

- oooh androids generate energy from water....that's cool

- huh.....interesting stuff about cooking and needing to or not.... Why? Why can androids eat and taste if it serves no purpose? this is now up there with the "why can they feel things if it's forbidden" question

- also, yeah, wtf happens to the soldierbots when the war ends?

- it's like worrying about Ritsu all over again

- hello parade man.....oh

- he's given up.....and his comrades vanished in the desert

- oh wait quest log indicates this machine's not the same one

- imma go hit the fairgrounds for emil's frickin' flower

- his backstory gets more and more ominous and also he gets here faster and faster

- okay the only things left are either beyond where i've been, down in an area i'm not sure how to safely reach yet, and daddy serves who is level 50 surely and not to be trifled with. oh and also the racer dude.

- one more crack at him with +20% move speed....

- almost made it. my route's not optimized.

- i have no idea how to make that better.....

- we're just gonna move on

- i think i am out of sidequest hell for the moment so let's get this show on the road

- i do not remember this bigass pipeline but ok

- wheeee!!!

- "The Flooded City" this area name is a goddamn aesthetic and I am for it

- where the fuck is all this water coming from

- can androids swim???

- what makes the line between one machine war and the next? are there periods of truce?

- androids cannot swim i just get mario karted back to land

- let's do some ocean fishing!

- i caught a pod....neat i have three now

- lots of shit to catch here

- i appreciate that the ocean water actually moves in and out, nice detail

- also why the fuck did machine versions of all these fish get built

- holy fuck coelacanth

- anyway that's a big boost to my fish encyclopedia, that was like ten new fish

- i know there are chests over there, how do i get over there?

- holy fuck a rocket ship

- annnnd immediately sent to fly around and do some more shit

- she can wait im fishing a little more--

- SHARK

- okay let's fly

- flying tank, not too hard. weirdly easy, actually

- o

- o fuck

- MACHINE DUNKLEOSTEOSAURUS OR SOMETHING???

- fuck dude why couldn't i fish THAT up

- thing's ancient. okay. also, devastating.

- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

- ALSO APPARENTLY INDESTRUCTIBLE

- is that A2--

- nop

- ooooh, mortars! why is shielding against the satellite laser striker possible but not close-range mortar fire?

- ftr most of my knowledge of what a mortar actually IS comes from there being one in Bastion

- EAT CANNONFIRE, BITCH! LITERALLY!

- sweet

- fuck

- OH FUCK IT'S GOT LEGS

- shiiiiiiiit down they go--

- we OUT OH FUCK

- FUCKFUCKFUCK

- !!!!!!!!!!!!!! PASCAL AND PALS

- shiiiiiiiiiiit so this thing went berserk??? even the machines don't like it??????

- POD DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE CALL 9S A DESERTER

- looks like two emp thingies on this thing's back

- actually like three

- it keeps trying to punch me

- i only needed to destroy two and 9S wrecked it...

- where the fuck is he

- commander got a little emotion there....

- god. that was epic. hooboy.

- ....is Pascal okay?

- OKAY MENU, WHAT WAS DUNKLEBOT'S NAME....lemme translate.... GRUN? Is it GRUN? I like dunklebot better.

- aaaaaa the Operator was so happy to hear from 2B.....and we already have permission to search for 9S!

- oh i think i found the body of that other android who came to my aid

- im finding a lot of bodies

- this is not what i meant when i wanted a way to turn 9S off to get him out of the way of my platforming!

- right we're just gonna. transport back to the resistance base. instead of going the long way lmao

- oh....we. can't. go right there.

- get close, then

- didn't i get mail at some point? should check that too

- oh it was emil giving me fishing tips

- redheaded twins?

- the resistance camp is....pretty empty.....

- anemone says the twins are my next bet! and also DOESN"T say something probably important

- Popola and Devola!

- i like them

- seems like this is basically the itemfinder from pokemon?

- i have no idea how the fuck it actually works

- dammit it's getting late i think i need to stop for the night

- let me find a save point